When I was around 10, I played with a few kids who lived down the street from my grandparent's house. I had a crush on Angel, one of the girls that was apart of the group. After a few years, we all moved on and never really kept in touch, except now on FB.
She contacted me about 3 months ago, but we hadn't talked very much. She's a single mom, starting over and living with her parents temporarily. I know she's busy being a mom, looking for work, and also trying to go back to school full time. She isn't the type to text/talk a lot, or so it seems because I'll text and we'll chat for a few and then nothing for days. It wasn't a big deal at all until we went on a date last Friday.
I showed up with a rose and a note that said "Tag, you're it!" (we were talking about a game called freeze tag that we played as kids, so I thought it would be a good ice breaker.) That night was so awesome, it went by extremely fast. All we did was talk and talk... flirted a little bit back and forth, and just had fun getting to know each other. She seemed genuinely interested, complementing me on my eyes and even admitting she could fall for me. Almost as if she was telling me everything I wanted to hear. Even the body language was there. When I dropped her off at home, one of her kids was still up and that pretty much stopped anything from happening, but that was ok by me. When she hugged me to say by, I leaned in for the kiss and she responded almost naturally and her body language was telling me she wanted more... the kiss became a very passionate kiss. So we said good night and that was that. I went home happy and with a huge smile on my face. My guard was coming down fast and then... Nothing.
I texted her the next morning, said good morning, nothing more, nothing less... she responded and then I asked her how her day was going... no reply. later on, I told her I was thinking about the kiss we shared, and how I've never had a first kiss like that before. Again, no reply. Nothing for 3 days. I didn't text her again after that until Yesterday. I sent her a text saying I hadn't heard from her in a few days and just wanted to make sure everything was ok. She replied and apologized for not texting/contacting me and explained about the drama/chaos going on at the moment. I told her that it was cool and I understand. I told her I thought I scared her off and that I wanted to see her again. She said no, I didn't and said she wanted to see me again... and to give her this week to get all of her shit straightened out. I told her I totally respect that and for her to get at me when she was ready.
My best friend thinks she's just blowing me off. I'm wondering the same, because it doesn't take but a few seconds to say hi or whatever. I also have major trust issues. I've been through some shit (I've posted about them here over the years.) and I need her or whoever I'm interested to show me they are as well. That's what makes this confusing. That night was the best night I've ever had that didn't include sex... I was seriously starting to fall for her and thought she was feeling the same. I've been playing it very cool and haven't contacted her except for the times I mentioned already. So I dunno... maybe I'm not showing her enough interest?
So now, I guess I just sit back... the ball is in her court. Right?